Namaste,
Meliea
It was a Tuesday and I was overdue. I was ready for my baby girl to get here, make her appearance and let me start loving her in person. My mother was also in town… so off we went to the hospital to be “augmented” (my mother really couldn’t wait any more).
The doctors had told me to get to the hospital around 6am and
that the whole process could take 24-48 hours. I told my husband to go to work
in the morning cause we would probably just be sitting there. So he helped get
me checked in and then went to work. I was hooked up to a monitor that
charted my contractions at about seven minutes apart. I was feeling nothing and
had no clue I was even in labor. A good friend came by and we chatted the whole
morning, no big thing, entertaining guests and laboring at the same time. All
in a days work.
My doctor had come in at 8:30am and we had decided to go
ahead and break my water. It just felt like I urinated all over the bed and
continued to for awhile. Around 11am my friend left and I was desperate to get
out of bed. My contractions were starting to get stronger and more
uncomfortable. My mom helped get me onto the birth ball Oh the agony! I just
couldn't get comfortable. Nothing was helping. I finally found myself on all fours
with my only relief being my mother’s hands massaging my low back. “This is
back labor I’m in” I thought, "crap." I remembered in my birthing classes that
they talked about this. The back of her head was pressing against the base of
my spine, causing immense back pain. I was doubled over a bucket, sure I was
going to vomit from the pain.
Let me back things up a bit. We had gone into this day with
a very loose birth plan. I wanted a natural childbirth but was open to an
epidural if needed. If a C-section was medically necessary then I guess I was
open to that too. What ever it would take to get her out safely we were on
board for. I had taken every birthing class I could, read books, and knew
things were going happen the way they were supposed to and I was at peace with
that. I had started taking prenatal yoga when I was just 5 weeks pregnant and
had kept myself in good shape during the pregnancy. I felt strong and capable going
into that day. I had done all I could do to prepare myself for what was to
come.
But I didn’t plan on back labor. My husband got to the
hospital around 12:45pm and tried to take over for my mother, which I promptly
shut down because he wasn’t massaging my back right. Poor guy. The nurse had
come in once before and asked if I wanted an epidural. I turned her away. No, I
could do this. My contractions were getting closer together, only two minutes
apart now. I thought, “Any time, two minutes right, that’s like some magic
number, I must be close to pushing.” My nurse told me it could be like that “for
a long time”. What did that mean, “a long time” – minutes, hours, days? The
thought of it was almost enough to send me over the edge. I felt like if I only knew how long then I
could get through it, but the thought of countless hours doubled over a puke
bucket was more than I could take. “Please get the anesthesiologist in here as
soon as possible”, I said. He came, he poked, he delivered the goods, and I was
happy as a clam. My doctor came in to check me and I was only 3 cm. Despite all
that madness I had only dilated 1 cm (I came into the hospital at 2cm). Thank
goodness I had already had the epidural when he delivered that news.
So we popped in a DVD and got comfy. I was relaxed, finally.
And in an hour and a half I went from 3cm to 9.5cm. I think the epidural was just what I needed
to relax and let my body do the work.
Looking back at the process and my pregnancy I couldn’t have
asked for either to go any better. I had a wonderful birth experience, it went
relatively quick, and everyone came out of it healthy. I pushed for a very long
time, but never felt tired if you can believe it. I owe that to the power of my
yoga practice. All those malasana and goddess squats prepared me to push for
that long. The best decision I made was to go into the experience knowledgeable
about the type of birth I wanted, but open to the possibility that it may not
go the way I envisioned, and to be okay with that, to not be hard on myself for
getting the epidural.
Charlotte Family Yoga Center’s Prenatal Program gave me a
community, a place to make friends, a place to ask questions, learn about the
birth process, listen to those who had gone before me share their experiences,
practice my birthing breath, be challenged, and de-stress all at the same time.
Pregnancy and the birthing process is
such a magical time in your life, do all that you can to enjoy it. Because
before you know it, your baby will be a toddler!
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